Hey folks,

just thought that some of you might be interested in what's going on with me, since I've been rather silent (that alone seems odd, right?) and haven't played much.

I'm currently free from any commitments on FUMBBL (no tournaments, no leagues) and I'm enjoying it. The itch to play a match (especially with the Monsters and my Slayer Candidates) is there every now and then, but I've only tried to find a game once - and when I quickly got an offer (that actually looked rather good for me), I refused and left Gamefinder. I had (just in time) realized that the thought of committing 60 minutes or more to it and updating player bios afterwards totally turned me off.

What has happened? Well, my little FUMBBL break felt good: I didn't miss the site at all, which is of course not that surprising on a family trip. The four GLT games (Fastest To Apply Swiss Qualifier) were fun, but also pretty exhausting and ending up on the very last rank wasn't exactly satisfying. I really needed a break from the Monsters. Since then, I have barely played anything but the occasional tournament match (Brawls, RRRs). However, while I in the past usually enjoyed participating in tournaments, this time it was different: I found scheduling annoying and the time of every single game felt inconvenient (and be it only that I was too tired after a long day).

A few weeks ago I had an unplanned FUMBBL break (I simply forgot or didn't feel the need to access the site) of about two weeks and almost missed an RRR game due to this (thanks albinv and Brainsaw for making it happen anyway). When I won that game and advanced to the final, I was almost disappointed - because I would have to play another one. At least it was a final and would give me a shot at my second title win. I even considered it a good opportunity to leave the site for good, for an indefinite period. I didn't win (and would have felt bad if I had, because it really wouldn't have been deserved) and once more realized that my coaching skill and my ambition have both degraded. Aiming for tournament wins and similar achievements seems pointless right now, playing for fun doesn't motivate me much these days. Since that last game I'm frequenting the site more often again, but haven't played. I do enjoy one particular PM conversation with a group of close buddies, but have little desire to do anything else.

Probably not exactly good news, but at least I'm not totally lost. And my perspective on FUMMBL is changing from an escape to a nice place to hang out. Which is good, right?

You surely haven't heard from old Rabe for the last time. ;-)


Best regards

Rabe / Florian